Like everyone else, I have to deal with negative energy projected at me from other people. And, the negativity I myself, unintentionally create.
We all dislike it when someone else’s negative energy is being projected at us. Yet, we rarely have a clear view of our role in any negative situation.
As humans, we are most susceptible to our own illusions, the ones we our selves have created.
I’m currently handling a situation, where an old (meaning ex) friend, is slinging mud. My ex friend, who will will call Samantha. The jabs she has been taking at me, are causing me some stress.
Not nice, I know, but the jabs are not what bothers me. What I really do not like, is that I have been responding to her jabs…emotionally. Hurt, anger, and sadness.
After smudging and praying like crazy, to no avail, I find I am still stressed and hurt. This tells me the negative emotions are coming from inside me, not outside me. It is not the energy Samantha is throwing at me that is causing these feelings. It is my own emotional response that is causing these feelings.
And, I do not know how to stop them.
For help with this perplexing situation, I decide to take a Shaman’s journey, to see what my Animal guides had to say.
I go straight to bear. She is the one who comforts me, makes me feel safe and warm, I know she will help.
Bear has her back to me. It looks as if she is holding something in each arm, but, I cannot see what.
“Bear, Samantha is being mean to me, She is saying very combative things and trying to get me to fight with her. Its not fair, I tried to help her, but she snubbed me. Why is she so mean to me? Its not fair.”
As bear turns around, I see that she has two babies, one in each arm. One has my face, the other has Samantha’s. They are both crying in unison, “Im the victim! She was mean to me!”
Each one lifts a tiny baby finger to point at the other. “Why is she so mean to me?” They both wail.
“Now, what am I suppose to so with this?” Bear asks in amused tone.
I was definitely surprised by the image. At the same time, I understand right away. I am taking the role of the victim, and this is not the right approach.
I turn to leave. Snake is waiting for me.
I follow snake. We travel away from Bear’s cave into the tall grasses. Snake leads me into a hole in the ground, which turns into a tunnel. Down, down, down, we go.
We are literally under the ocean, buried under feet of dirt and earth and sand. The sand is packed so tight that I cannot move. About five feet from me is a clay pot, that has been buried under the sea for 100 years.
We lay there packed in sand, Snake, the pot and I . The understanding washes over me that none of this will matter 100 years from now. (My guides are often reminding me that I take myself too seriously). I absorb the healing energy of the earth and sea.
Snake starts to travel up, I follow.
It is now dark out. Snake takes me back to dry land, to a clearing in the woods. We are alone with the starry night sky and a fire.
“Come dance with me.” Snake says.
We dance. “Transmute the energy between you and she.”
I dance on my own for a while, aware I am transmuting the energy in my body. Changing its flow, changing its direction. At the same time, I am aware I am changing my energy’s flow, my direction.
“When you leave here, what will you do?” Snake asks.
“I will turn it into a dance, and dance it for others, so they can learn the power of the Snake dance to transmute energy. And over time, 100 years from now, I may be buried under the sea, but, above me someone will still be transmuting energy by dancing Snake’s dance.”
And so the journey ends.
I am very grateful to Snake Spirit. Snake energy is one of my favorites. The lesson snake teaches us is to transmute. With snake for a teacher, you do not say “I have bled.”
You say: “I have bled, and I have healed. I am a survivor, these are may scars. I am a proud warrior, I have survived all these battles.”
The amazing thing is today, I am free of this negativity. Today, I took my lesson, and shared it with others. I transmuted it into something new…. these words.
